| I’m *making* an online fundraising event for a school. I thought maybe people would gain something by seeing my process for creating, rehearsing, collaborating, and performing the event… So, here I am sharing. |
Today and tomorrow were scheduled for me to work on the showflow and game structure of the event. I had committed to setup for my wife’s Zoom performance which I drastically underestimated. I got some work done on my stuff, but there was a lot of time spent on setting up her lights, camera, and sound. Alas, I don’t have a show flow. I don’t have game structure.
I am grateful for the time I spent on her thing. It taught me a lot that I think will help the school client, and will help future audiences. I got to talk to the school director today on zoom to figure out some things, and I got to work with my Zoom tech. The day was not wasted in any sense.
I know I’m on Zoltar’s timeline. I can sometimes get distracted, dismayed, or sidetracked by surprises that come up like this, but I don’t want to allow my black and white thinking to get in the way of progress. This happens all the time and I see it with lots of entertainers. As soon as we start into a project we love, new rabbit holes sprout up instantly.
Sitting to think of show flow and game structure is hard. It takes a lot of focus, and this is a big part of the value I bring. This event will be something completely original and something that most other entertainers would be incapable of doing. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
My hope in this writing is that I convey my confidence in my ability as well as the vulnerability I inevitably feel when I do my favorite work. The only thing I can do to continually recenter myself is to remind myself of my experience and try to bring the results of it to my audience. To hold back would be selfish.